We all have Battles in our life~Some challenge our integrity or our beliefs, some our very body as pain riddles us beneath our skin. Some battles come from within ourselves as we fight against fears and holes in our self esteem and some are played out with not just one but many opponents. It is not our enemies but our allies who mean the difference between fight and flight, winning and losing. Our allies are there like our shadows. They are the people who believe that we are better than we believe ourselves to be. They fight along side of us without us asking and they are the ones who give us strength to get up when we've fallen and who we can rely on to help us up over the steepest of hills and through the blackest of nights. No matter what your battle, no matter how hard it will be to win your war, I hope for you at least one friend like this. ...One person in this sometimes bitter and unwelcoming world who believes in your strength and soul and, to spite the possibility that they may not understand who you are at war with or why, will stand along side you through anything while shelving their judgment. If nothing else I hope that if you lose to your opponent, (whether your enemy is a cancer eating at your body or a group of people trying to harm you mentally or physically), that you have that friend by your side till your very last breath. At least then, and forever, you will never be alone.
~Stacy J French-Roosa
Every day I carefully craft my words to say what is safe, what is acceptable...Often I deny my real self and inner voice so I don't hurt anyone. Judgments withstanding, I am allowing my other personality to be set free. Join me in saying what you've been hiding inside. No, I am not talking about bashing other people individually...but a place to state what we are feeling about life, politics (Oh no, I said it) and the stupidity or wonderfulness of groups or people in the spotlight.
Thank you Stacy! I really needed to hear this right now because you really have away with words. Sometimes I can't think of quite the right words to express how I feel and sometimes when I read your posts like now it is as if you are reading my mind and your written words express our thoughts right on and so beautifully. Thank you! Hugs.
ReplyDeletei have a wife and 2 children, but fear i am alone. i have no friends. not real friends anyhow. I am not close to my mother or father. I have nobody to speak to. I battle with my demons all alone. ive done this for most my adult life. I wish i didnt have to be annonymous and i wish i had the balls to tell my family how i feel. However, i believe that would mean the end. You are lucky to have real friends. Even if they are shadows, you know, they will always be there. x
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry, Anonymous, that you are going through this. How would telling your family you need your own thing end your marriage and family? Unless you mean that you are unhappy with your marriage.In that case I understand.It took me a long time to leave my husband...at least 7 years.I wish for you happiness and to have what you want.We only live once, as they say, and its not your responsibility to keep up an appearance that is making you unhappy! You deserve to live a life that makes you happy. Write again. I am here if you want to talk.
Delete